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I don't care what you say I know it's all a lie All these feelings you portray The truth is hidden behind your eyes I know what you're about You can't even tell the truth I'll just continue to scream and shout It's the same as throughout my youth Just another reason to act out You can continue to deceive if you will Cause I know what you're all about What you do wont change what I feel

I wish I was a machine just like you I wish those lies you believe would all come true I wish this pain to stop what I do I wish the happiness would emit through and through I wish I could smile and just be free I wish I was who you wanted me to be I wish I could stop this pain from devouring me I wish I could be simple just like a machine I wish you would just give me a hand I wish I was just another generic brand I wish I was simple and followed command To be a machine would be absolutely grand I wish I could just escape this thought I wish I could be easily well bought I wish the truth had never been taught Most of all I wis

I am nothing, empty and broken Show me the way with soft words spoken A million pieces, I'm shattered and torn Growing tired, I'm sick and worn Tearing away, your words start to hurt Back to depression I start to revert You don't believe me and you never do Trust in my words, they're always true I can't believe you, I've heard to many lies This part about me you begin to despise I don't mean to hurt you, I promise I care I'm just stupid, insane, these words are always there I'm sure you know that, I'm sure I told you so But you didn't believe me, and its starting to show My mind is numb and my heart it sore I promise I love you

My stomach is exploding My heart cannot take it Another day of exposing And your lies no longer make it I thought you'd be goading But you seem to fake it So this gun I'm loading And I'll never break it The force of this loathing Lets see if you can wake it But now I'm eroding And I can't seem to shake it This sense of forboding All I do is quake it I need some decoding Because I cannot take it

 A bullet to the mouth And blood is up the walls A flower blooms out From the wound as you fall Now stained and soaked Death starts to call Laughing in your face Like he knows it all Like you're a disgrace Like you cant stand tall Just another waste Far out of your place And you're going mental Just another nutcase In the eye of the storm Show me an Embrace And I'll help keep you warm We'll get out of this place It's too shattered and torn Now the memories you erase Are withered and worn Take the flower away The blood's off the walls I'm too tired to stay In the place that death calls.

 My inspiration seems to be my pain The thoughts I think up everyday they haunt me constant like a plague and with the cheek to ask; 'are you ok' I promise that you will repay For I am far from being saved and I am far from being obeyed Now forget about promises made All that follows is being betrayed So now my journey seems to be delayed Now Ill wait another decade Live this life how it's portrayed I'll show you that I can pervade And your thoughts I shall invade I'll make you wish you would have stayed

Just let me scream 'Til my lungs bleed Just let me shout And let me plead I need to be happy I need to be sane But how can I achieve this When all I feel is strain? So leave me to wallow And leave me to rot Because my self pity Is all that I've got So leave me to cry And leave me to plot Because all I want now Is just one more shot